Why We Never Take Our Shoes Off.

I didn’t know whether to rip your clothes off or run the other way. I thought it would be easier if I didn’t stay. However the passion for you still burns as bright as the day we met under the light of the falling summer sun.

I keep my distance now because I see the lust in your eyes glaring at me, almost daring me to run over and kiss you. I know that you know I never say no to a dare so one of these days I might forget where I am, or all of a sudden not care who is watching and plant a big one where I know you want it, right on your full lips. The lips I’ve been dreaming of for months.

But it’s not that easy for us. We have a like/hate relationship. Like I can’t stop thinking about you so come here but when you get here I might have an urge to punch you in the face. I won’t though because the feelings after are pure ecstasy. Just the thoughts of you next to me.

Is it weird that sometimes when you speak it sounds like nails on a chalkboard to my ears? We are complete opposites. You, the I can’t stop talking because I need the silence to be filled at all times, extrovert. And me, the I don’t feel safe to speak sometimes so I don’t, introvert.

It’s like we are always in fight or flight mode. The tension rises until neither one of us wants to decode why the other is screaming or why we never take off our shoes and we always need to be close to the door.

I’ve never told you that every time you scream at me all I want to do is hold you in my arms and drown out the noise because I know you need it. A loving hand to wrap around and push all your broken pieces together. To turn your hard exterior into soft.

I can’t do this anymore. I’m going to be the one to have the last laugh because the final thing you are going to see is my back as I run away from you with no intentions of returning. I’m leaving and you don’t even know yet. I’m positive it’s for the best. Just so you know you will stand out from the rest.

I care so much about you and I don’t even really know you. We’ve been through so many emotions but we wouldn’t be able to say each others middle names if asked. So I will leave silently just as I came. If you were leaving the whole world would know. I prefer the mystery though. I like the fact that it will be so quick that I won’t hear you screaming “please, come back.”

I’m sorry it has to be in the dead of night but I chose flight over fight. So I will keep my shoes on and when you wake up I will be gone.


It’s My Fault You Have Bad Dreams.

It’s my fault you have bad dreams. I ruined your naivety. I pulled out your innocence to try to save my own. You know, it’s really hard to be so corrupted. I didn’t do this to myself though. Someone came along and blackened my view of everything too. I’m sorry that I stumbled upon you.

I didn’t mean to damage everything in my path. That’s just what I’ve grown up on. This is what I’ve been told to do. I was recruited into the darkness without ever being taught how to get out. They expressed that I was important. That my mission was special. My confidence was stolen. I’m just trying to get it back by making you feel hollow like me.

I took everything from you. I took your happiness and now you are left with an empty soul. I wish I could say that I’m full but I want more. So I will take from another and another. But what you see isn’t everything because someone keeps taking from me.

Please don’t leave. I need you. We both make each other feel dead inside but then again nothing makes us feel alive so just stay. Maybe keep me warm for a night. Help me get rid of my ghosts for a night and help me dream of what life was like before. When my innocence was contained by the people around me. I used to be forced to cover my ears but now I can hear everything. And now you can too.

Welcome, here is your number, forget about your name. Don’t forget to open your eyes and take your hands away from your ears. This is what life is really like. And remember to leave your soul and smile at the door.


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